Oh the uninspiring moment of having to write.
So much drama. I was hoping to leave it all behind with being a first year college student but the stuff just wont stop rushing up on me!
Sometimes I think it's all in my head, that I'm creating the drama myself, but when I tell others about it, they look just as surprised/confused as I feel, so..I guess it's actually there. Or something.
I think I just really, really, really don't understand people.
Clearly, I was brought to the world at the worst time possible.
It's weird though, cos I can read people extremely easily and I certainly know when I'm not wanted in a room, but just cos I can read expressions and vibes doesnt mean I actually understand the bastard sending me all the signals.
My mum believes I'd make a great therapist/psychiatrist because of this, but honestly, most people just piss me off. I'd tell them to build a bridge and get over themselves 15 min in on the first session. So no.
I know I'm a bit of a trainwreck myself, it's my personality and I just have to accept all different sides of it.
I also know loads of people have honesty and trust issues, which is fine, we all have our secrets, but dont use them as an excuse when it's keeping you away from doing things.
One friend recently told me he knows pretty much half of a very famous sports-team, and how he didnt want people to know about it, (making it the opposite of bragging) and it really hasnt changed my view of him even a little.
Another friend of mine has the probably the lowest self esteem I've ever come across in a person, but she's not afraid to show me and I love her for bravingly showing her vulnerability. I actually think I love her even more because of it. Only the weak are brave enough to be carried.
What I dont like, are robots. Everyone has emotions. I'm not saying you have to show them to me, but any glance of a heart will make your colours shine through and you'll become a person.
It's extremely simple. That goes for honesty as well; try it and you'll see how good it feels to actually speak your mind. I should've done it a long time ago, before we got into this mess, but right now my state of mind will only hurt you, so I'm actually shutting up on your behalf.
And now, it's time for Oktoberfest. Huzzah!
Sometimes I think it's all in my head, that I'm creating the drama myself, but when I tell others about it, they look just as surprised/confused as I feel, so..I guess it's actually there. Or something.
I think I just really, really, really don't understand people.
Clearly, I was brought to the world at the worst time possible.
It's weird though, cos I can read people extremely easily and I certainly know when I'm not wanted in a room, but just cos I can read expressions and vibes doesnt mean I actually understand the bastard sending me all the signals.
My mum believes I'd make a great therapist/psychiatrist because of this, but honestly, most people just piss me off. I'd tell them to build a bridge and get over themselves 15 min in on the first session. So no.
I know I'm a bit of a trainwreck myself, it's my personality and I just have to accept all different sides of it.
I also know loads of people have honesty and trust issues, which is fine, we all have our secrets, but dont use them as an excuse when it's keeping you away from doing things.
One friend recently told me he knows pretty much half of a very famous sports-team, and how he didnt want people to know about it, (making it the opposite of bragging) and it really hasnt changed my view of him even a little.
Another friend of mine has the probably the lowest self esteem I've ever come across in a person, but she's not afraid to show me and I love her for bravingly showing her vulnerability. I actually think I love her even more because of it. Only the weak are brave enough to be carried.
What I dont like, are robots. Everyone has emotions. I'm not saying you have to show them to me, but any glance of a heart will make your colours shine through and you'll become a person.
It's extremely simple. That goes for honesty as well; try it and you'll see how good it feels to actually speak your mind. I should've done it a long time ago, before we got into this mess, but right now my state of mind will only hurt you, so I'm actually shutting up on your behalf.
And now, it's time for Oktoberfest. Huzzah!
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